It’s so exciting to see my closest friends get ready to graduate this week. I have such great confidence that whatever their next steps they plan to take are, they will be on their way to do big things.
Exactly a year ago today, I was getting ready to take my last final exams – they were on Tuesday, Wednesday & Thursday. Being the procrastinator that I am, I ended up going without sleep all three days because there was just so much material that I had to retain. Finishing my last final felt so weird – I felt happy and relieved to be officially finished with my undergrad, but I also felt slightly sad that the experience was over. I also felt a little freaked out because I wasn’t completely certain about what the future would bring. Will I find a job? Will I get to move out of my parents’ house and buy a new car like I’ve planned? Will I still see my friends? After I had that moment of disorientation, my boyfriend picked me up from class – the sun was down, but it was a warm spring night, and he took me out for pizza to celebrate.
A year later, I’m not at all where I expected to be – working 60+ hours a week, still working for free (but I like to call it pro bono), having trouble maintaining my weight due to stress (I’ve gained 15 pounds and counting), and still driving the same car I’ve had since high school, and the maintenance of which is the source of a large part of my depression and financial instability. It’s not terrible, but it is what it is.
I know I won’t land my dream job overnight. I know it’s going to take plenty of hard work, sweat and tears, and although I feel like the sweat and tears I’ve shed over the past year are more than enough to end the drought here in Utah, I just need to keep on grinding. At times, I find myself blaming my inability to land a job on the nature of the economy or the nature of being a Democrat (the people’s party has no money!), but I realize that nothing worth wanting will come easy. My “problem” is that I want to stay in politics and have a job in what I love doing. If I wanted to take a job for money, I would’ve taken that PAC Manager position I was offered in DC, but I probably would have been MORE miserable since it was for a Republican PAC. Either that, or I would have defected to the dark side and lost my soul, conscience and ability to think rationally.
Regardless, I have so much confidence for my friends and I am so proud of them for all they’ve accomplished. Graduating from college is a huge accomplishment and an opportunity that a lot of people don’t have. I’m excited to see what the future brings for us and I’m optimistic that we’ll all be where we want to be someday – we just need to keep on working harder than everyone else.