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My First TV Interview

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On Wednesday, immediately following the State of the Union, I had the opportunity to interview on Utah Matters, a political segment on KJZZ Channel 14.  I joined my friend Marcus, who is the Chair of the Utah College Democrats, and two leaders within the Utah College Republicans.  We discussed topics including the minimum wage, fairness and equality, “free” community college tuition, the national debt, and tax reform.  With all the different people they could have brought in to respond to the State of the Union, I thought was really neat for the program to feature college students.  I had the opportunity to do some interviews when I went to the DNC back in 2012, but none of them were a full 30-minute segment like this one.  I never would’ve thought I’d have this kind of exposure at such a young age – it has been amazing and I am so grateful.

One of my biggest weaknesses is presenting – I have such a hard time articulating my ideas clearly and intelligently.  It was an incredible chance for me to learn a lot about I present the opinions that matter to me most under pressure.  It was also a great way for me to evaluate how I really feel about different issues, because the answer that came to mind first reflected how I truly felt about the topic I was asked about.  I know that the best way to improve a skill and overcome a weakness is to practice until it becomes second nature, but putting myself on the spot was probably the best thing I could do to overcome my stage fright.  It’s funny how something so scary can also be so much fun, and I hope I get more opportunities to do more interviews in the future.

With every new opportunity or big accomplishment, I reflect on where I am now, and where I started.  I am nowhere close to where I imagined I would be at this age, but I am still very proud of where I have come so far.  I am learning so much and meeting so many incredible people along the way.  I have great mentors and a wonderful support system, and I couldn’t be more grateful for my current situation.  I still have big ambitions, but I have learned to be patient – the thing that matters most is that I continue to give my all everyday.  I know it will all pay off.

 

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Today

I am feeling so many different emotions.  I feel blessed that I was able to land a 5th round of interviews with Goldman Sachs.  I am grateful for the endless support I’ve had from the people who believe in me more than I do myself.  Because I’ve never worked so hard to prepare for something like an interview, I feel accomplished.  I skimmed the 160+ pages of the Goldman Sachs 10-k Report, wrote up answers to questions I’m not even sure I’ll be asked, and reached out to current employees I barely know for advice on the interview process.  I even mailed thank-you letters to each person I interviewed with, and each letter was uniquely tailored to the conversation I had with each individual.  And I’m thinking this might be the last round that determines whether or not I got the job because the number of people with whom I meet each round is dwindling.

I know I’ve said this before, but I mean it even more now when I say I’ve never wanted something so badly in my life.  I feel like this career would just open up a whole new world of opportunity for me.  Everyone talks about how hard it is to work at Goldman Sachs, but I already work hard, and always have.  I feel like such a good fit for this company’s culture, and the fulfillment of their goals are ones that would be a dream come true to be a part of.  In this role, I’d be able to harness my unused potential – I’d be challenged, I’d learn new things everyday, I’d continue to grow.  And if I work hard enough, maybe I’ll even be able to transfer to an office on the East Coast, or anywhere in the whole world.

I’m also feeling very scared and nervous.  In the past, I’ve broken down into a million pieces whenever I’ve come up short of meeting a goal.  Failure is something I’ve never been very good at dealing with.  While I’m still very worried about being rejected, this time is a little different.  If anything, I just received 5 weeks of the most intense interview experience anyone could ever have with one of the most prestigious institutions in the world.  That’s definitely something I’ll always be proud of.  And they can bet their bottom dollar that I will try applying again.  They must like me after all – they’ve called me back five times! 😛

I just wanted to remind myself of the hard work I’ve done to get to this point.  All of the failures, hard times, and mistakes I’ve made brought me here to this very moment.  I wouldn’t take any of them back for the world.  If things work out for me and this role, I will know what it feels like to have everything I could ever want.  Each stepping stone towards my future career goals and happiness means the world to me.  On the other hand, if things don’t work out, I just want to have these feelings recorded so that I’ll remember not to lose hope, and not to give up.  I’m making progress.  Two years ago, I couldn’t even get an interview.  This year, I’ve already had seven with Goldman Sachs.

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Typical New Years Reflection Post

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This post I made in July, 4 days before my birthday (the most painful day of the year for me), sums up my 2013.  Everyone knows I’m such a worrywart, and I always freak out like the sky is falling, but I truly went through more stress, personal drama, and difficult changes this year than I’ve ever had to deal with before; I felt like my world fell apart multiple times last year.  But in the end, I ended up gaining so much more.  With every loss I suffered, I gained an even more valuable blessing in its place, bringing me another step closer to where I want to be.  I have so many reasons to be happy, and I’m truly so grateful for everything I have.

I went into 2013 just hoping that I would continue to grow.  While I definitely learned so many things about life, love, and the art of happiness, the moments that were most impactful include both the times I felt I hit rock bottom and the best of times.  I will probably never be 100% satisfied with my job, and there will always be times when I feel frustrated, overworked and undervalued… But I am always grateful for every raise and every email from a client praising me for my work with my boss CC’d.  I’m grateful for the opportunities I’ve had at Cicero that have enabled me to build such a marketable skill set that will allow me to be a strong and valuable asset for my next company.  And though my DWI is a huge, expensive pain in the ass and waste of time, I’m lucky to have such amazing people in my life who didn’t judge me because of it, and helped me understand that it may have actually saved my life.  Also, on a less significant level, I felt so grown up when I finally replaced my 240 with a beautiful Lexus, haha :).

And while I went through the biggest heartbreak I’ve ever suffered this year, I ended up capturing the interest of someone I have always been attracted to, but never even thought was attainable.  When we started dating, I had to make a conscious effort to stop myself from falling because it was just too good to be true.  But it’s been so easy to trust him over time, and for me to see more ways in which we match.  Conversation just flows naturally between us, not only because we share similar interests, but also because we both love having engaging discussions and keeping our minds stimulated.  I admire his passion for the things he loves and the people he looks up to.  He works hard in everything he does, and is enthusiastic about succeeding and continuously improving himself.  There hasn’t been a single day that’s gone by since we’ve been dating that he hasn’t told me that I’m beautiful…  Not to mention that he has Brad Pitt’s face and Jesus’s abs.  He’s perfect.  This kind of amazing shit only happens in movies, I swear… Brian is my greatest gift of 2013.

There is one thing that stayed constant, though – in spite of all the mistakes I made this year, I never lost the support and love of my family. I could never feel lost knowing they’ll always be there for me no matter what.  I am so lucky to have been blessed with such a wonderful family.

In a nutshell, I wouldn’t have had 2013 go any other way.  I suffered losses, and made costly mistakes, but in the end, I would re-live it all over again just to be in this very moment, writing this post while taking a break from my segmentation report, with the sound of my family doing fireworks in the background and my puppy sitting in my lap.  I truly have so much to be grateful for, and I have been armed with so much potential to achieve anything I set my mind to.  These challenges I faced this year have only given me perspective that has strengthened my ability to love and show compassion to others.  2014 is MY year – the year of the horse.  I can’t wait to see what the future brings, because it just keeps getting better and better.

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