I am feeling so many different emotions. I feel blessed that I was able to land a 5th round of interviews with Goldman Sachs. I am grateful for the endless support I’ve had from the people who believe in me more than I do myself. Because I’ve never worked so hard to prepare for something like an interview, I feel accomplished. I skimmed the 160+ pages of the Goldman Sachs 10-k Report, wrote up answers to questions I’m not even sure I’ll be asked, and reached out to current employees I barely know for advice on the interview process. I even mailed thank-you letters to each person I interviewed with, and each letter was uniquely tailored to the conversation I had with each individual. And I’m thinking this might be the last round that determines whether or not I got the job because the number of people with whom I meet each round is dwindling.
I know I’ve said this before, but I mean it even more now when I say I’ve never wanted something so badly in my life. I feel like this career would just open up a whole new world of opportunity for me. Everyone talks about how hard it is to work at Goldman Sachs, but I already work hard, and always have. I feel like such a good fit for this company’s culture, and the fulfillment of their goals are ones that would be a dream come true to be a part of. In this role, I’d be able to harness my unused potential – I’d be challenged, I’d learn new things everyday, I’d continue to grow. And if I work hard enough, maybe I’ll even be able to transfer to an office on the East Coast, or anywhere in the whole world.
I’m also feeling very scared and nervous. In the past, I’ve broken down into a million pieces whenever I’ve come up short of meeting a goal. Failure is something I’ve never been very good at dealing with. While I’m still very worried about being rejected, this time is a little different. If anything, I just received 5 weeks of the most intense interview experience anyone could ever have with one of the most prestigious institutions in the world. That’s definitely something I’ll always be proud of. And they can bet their bottom dollar that I will try applying again. They must like me after all – they’ve called me back five times! 😛
I just wanted to remind myself of the hard work I’ve done to get to this point. All of the failures, hard times, and mistakes I’ve made brought me here to this very moment. I wouldn’t take any of them back for the world. If things work out for me and this role, I will know what it feels like to have everything I could ever want. Each stepping stone towards my future career goals and happiness means the world to me. On the other hand, if things don’t work out, I just want to have these feelings recorded so that I’ll remember not to lose hope, and not to give up. I’m making progress. Two years ago, I couldn’t even get an interview. This year, I’ve already had seven with Goldman Sachs.